Jealousy is weird.
People are always bound to be jealous
of others. They’ll be jealous of their success and the things that those people
have that they don’t, and think how unfair it is because they obviously work so
much harder than those people at what
they do, even though they both do the same thing.
I’ve never believed much in fate, but
sometimes I have moments where I think fate was involved, and for some reason I
believe in destiny and what everyone was meant to do with their life. I also
believe some things are never meant to be and that you can’t change that, no
matter how hard you try and change it. Everyone always preaches about hard
work, but I learned about genetic disposition in school and how everyone has a
set point for happiness. The set point is something that you are given through
genes when you’re born, and is the point at which you will always come back to
when your happiness level changes, either positively or negatively. I think
that life might be the same way – sometimes, you just get to the point you get
to, and that’s it. You ride the wave where you are for the rest of your life
because there’s nowhere left for you to go. The point at which you are is the
point at which you are destined to be, and no amount of hard work can change
that.
Maybe I’m wrong, and maybe that’s
just my laziness speaking, or my pessimism, about how no amount of hard work
can bring you all the success that you want in life because eventually life is
just done with you and your success and moves onto the next person working hard
to achieve their dreams.
I’m more of a person that’s very interested
in psychology and why the brain works and does the things that it does. It has
always interested me to learn about why people do the things that they do and
to figure out the motivation behind everyone’s actions, at least in a
scientific manner. I’m always people watching, and sometimes eavesdropping,
because I love looking around and seeing everyone living a different life and
wondering what their life is like in comparison to mine. As a result, I’ve
become very good at analyzing people and figuring out why they do the things
they do, and why we as a species act and behave in certain ways.
I’ve learned that the Internet and
technology has become a large part of the lives that we lead in our modern day
and is something that greatly effects everyone who uses it. People have become
so dependent on phones and laptops – including myself – because we don’t
remember a time when we didn’t have an automatic way to do almost everything in
our pockets or purses or hands. For some people, the Internet has become a job,
and like any “regular” job, some people are more successful at it than others.
And like any human, some people are more jealous than others. Or at least that’s
what I like to call it, anyways. I can’t really think of another word for what
they’re feeling.
YouTube is generally the Internet job
of choice, although you could also be an Instagram model or Vine star. It seems
to me that most of the people that are known as “Internet famous” are from
YouTube or migrated to YouTube from their original platform because it’s the
easiest way to communicate with their fans and people that follow their lives.
It’s the best way, in my opinion, to show people your personality and your life
and become “friends” with a whole crowd of people on the Internet.
I’ve definitely fallen into that
hole. I’m an avid YouTube watcher, and I fell into the hole in about 2011 when
one of my friends at the time showed me a video by Alfie Deyes and Marcus
Butler doing the friendship tag that she wanted to replicate for our YouTube
channel (that no longer exists because I deleted everything out of shame). It’s
been about 5 years since then, and my taste in YouTube has definitely evolved.
I’ve found new people to love and found myself not loving some people I used
to, and leaving their channels.
I never left because I thought their
videos were bad, they just weren’t for me and weren’t what I wanted to spend
time watching.
I watched a video by Evan Edinger
recently called “I’ve Got Bad News” about how everyone on YouTube is watching
bad content. He doesn’t say this in a rude way, but just to explain how
everyone seems to be having an identity crisis lately because they all think
their content is bad and that they need to evolve and make content that is “better”.
I totally agree with everything Evan
said in his video, because I feel the same way. I’ve seen similar videos from
other people that I watch and people that are watched by people I watch about
how they think their content is bad and don’t know what to make anymore because
they feel that their videos aren’t good enough for YouTube anymore.
Here’s the thing: everyone is watching bad content. It’s just not
bad for them. This is something Evan said in his video, but his basic point was
that videos mean different things to different people. Some people love to
watch endless tag videos, and other people want tag videos to burn in hell. The
point is simply that everyone has a different opinion about everything, and if
you think something is good, then it is. Some Internet stranger can’t tell you
that your opinion is wrong because no one said their opinion was right.
Everyone should just watch what they
want to watch and leave everyone else alone. There’s that old cliché that goes “if
you have nothing nice to say, don’t say anything at all”, and I think more
people could stand to live by this cliché.
What matters is what I think, and
whether I think the content that I’m watching is good. If I do, I should keep
watching it. If not, I should stop, and just leave other people to their
business.
